Another year pass, a new one arrived...in my life! Many of us get scared or depressed as they think they get old and still did not acomplish many of the things they wanted to do. I might fell same, as now at the age of 27 i still see myself alone, trying to find my half soul in this life, sad as i couldnt became yet a mother or at least a step mother! I will gave my life just to hear for 1 time a child calling me "mama"! I still fell sad as i couldnt contiunue my studies as i dreamed before to change the world:)))), fell sad but happy in same time as i manage to change smthg.: My heart! I fell i became more tolerant and kind with those near me! Dnt mean that i am naive, but i try to be good person as Allah loves only the good ones! So i want to be loved at least by Allah, if here in this life i might not get the love of my heart! Beeing muslimah it helps me to pass over many problems i had in my life, and here i am : stronger like a stone, wild like a lionesse defending her rights of surviveing in a cruel world! But i am tired....sometimes i need another soul to hold me and wisper that all is ok now, i need a smile in the morning, a kiss for good night, a shared coup of coffe in the winter days....so many simple things in life i want and do not have them yet....but i have with me smthg.: HOPE and FAITH!

 

I am sure , one day the sun will rise on my window, and i will meet that smile who will catch my heart forevere; and if i must wait for another 7 years then i will... i am sitting now on my chair, in front of PC, listening my favourite Elissa! I watch the time and it is the time when i born! Happy Birthday Salwa!:))))

 

And if i must make a moment wish right now, i just want to drive a BMW in a cold midnight, listen Elissa and let the window softlly and gentele cross my hair! Drive nowhere, just drive and fell the air of this life and world!

Another wish: just peace and health, as if you have those two then you can do all you dreamed.

 

Life is wonderfull if we have the courage to cross through it. And i am not afraid of doing that as i know myself. I am just bit tired and i need a peare of arms to rest my soul.Meanwhile i got my peace through my prayers, to my friends and familly who i love them so much! I hope they know that and i show them everyday how much they mean to me!

 

27 and many more further.....