NEVER 

 

     Never say I love you,

Laa taqool ba7ebek,

     If you really dont care.

itha lam takun muhtam.

    Never talk about fellings,

la tatakalam 3an el mashaa3ir,

    If they arent really there.

   Never hold my hand,

   If you are gonna breake my heart.

   Never say you are going to...

   If you dont plan to start.

   Never look into my eyes,

    If all you say is lies.

    Never say hello,

    When in fact you mean good bye.

itha kunta taqsud al wadaa3.

     If you really mean Forever,

    Then say you will try.

    Never say Forever...

    Cause forever you make me cry...

We have time for everything...to sleep, to run

لدينا الوقت لكل شي..للنوم وللركض

from left to right and from right to left, to regret

من اليمين الى الشمال ومن الشمال الى اليمين لنشعر بالندم والاسف

that we have done some mistakes and later to

لاننا عملنا اخطاء كثيرة ولم نزل

make mistakes again, to judge others and forget

نعمل اخطاء ايضا,لنقوم بالحكم على الاخرين وننسى

about ourselfs, we have time to read and write,

اخطائنا,لدينا من الوقت ما نقرأ ونكتب

 to correct what we have wrote and to regret

ونصصح ما كتبن ونندم على ا

 what we have wrote, we have time to make

على ما كتبنا, لدينا الوقت لنخطط 

projects and not to accomplish them, we have

المشاريع ولكن لا ننفذه, لدين ا

 time to create ilussions and later to go deep

الوقت لنخلق ___ثم بعد ذلك نذهب عميقاا

 inside their ashes...

في رمادها

We have time for achievments and diseasses, to

لدينا من الوقت لتقييق الانجازات والاصابة بالامراض

 drop a guilt on the destiny and the small things

لنرمي الخطيئة بالقدر والاشياء الصغيرة المحيطة بحياتنا

in life, we have time to watch the sky, the

لدينا الوقت لننظر الى السماء

 comercials or an accident car, we have time to

وللسيارات الفاخرة ولحوادثها على الطرقات

 drop our questions and delay our answers, we

لدينا من الوقت لنمطر المقابل بالاسءلة وننكر اجوبتنا عليها

have time to breake a dream and later to

دينا الوقت لنحطم احلام الاخرين ثم ننكرها عليهم  

reinvent it, we have time to make freinds , to

لدينا الوقت لنصنع الكثير من الاصدقاء ثم نخسرهم

lose them, we have time to receive life lessons

لدينا من الوقت لنسمع ونتقبل دروس الحياة

and later to forget about them, we have time to

وبعد ذلك ننساها, لدينا من الوقت

receive gifts and later not to appreciate them.

لنقبل الهدايا من الاخرين وثم لا نقدّرهم على هداياهم

We have time for all.

لدينا من الوقت لكل ما ذكر

There is NO TIME for litlle tandrece,

ليس هناك وقت لل___

romance...and when we finally decide to do that,

للحب , ولكن عندما نقرر ان نحب

we ...die. I have learn few things in life which i

نموت....تعلمت بعض الاشياء من الحياة

decide it to share them with you all...I have learn

بسببها قررت ان اشارككم بها...تعلمت من الحياة

that you cant make or force some one to love

ن لا تستطيع ان ترغم انسانا ان يحبك

you, but what you can do is to make yourself

ولكن تستطيع ان تجعل نفسك انسانا محبوبا

loved...the rest is up to the others...

والباقي يعتمد على من يقابلك

I have learn that no matter how much i care,

تعلمت ان اهمية الشيء بمدى عنايتك به

 others wouldnt gave a damn, i have learn that it

والاخرين لا يلعنونك

take years to win the trust of others....and in few

تعلمت ان كسب ثقة الاخرين تحتاج ربما لسنوات عديدة

seconds to lose it as well...

ودقائق لفقدها

I learn that in life doesnt matter WHAT YOU

تعلمت ان الحياة ليس بما تملك من الاشياء

HAVE is WHOM YOU HAVE!

ولكن بمن تملك من الاشخاص

I have learn to manage and the charm is

تعلمت ان السحر والدماثة

available only about 15 minutes but after that is

وجودة ل15 دقيقة فقط ولكن بعدها

 better for you to know smthg....i have learn that

بعدها يجب عليك ان تعلم بعض الاشياء..تعلمت من الحياة

is better not to compare yourself with others or

انه من الافضل ان لا تقارن نفسك بالاخرين وما يفعلون

what they can do...but with what i can do.

بل فقط بما استطيع عمله

I learn that dsnt matter what happend to people,

تعلمت انه لا يهمني ما يحدث للناس

but it matters what i can do for them to help

ولكن من المهم ان تقدم لهم المساعدة حين يحتاجوها

 them.I have learn that no matter how many

تعلمت من الحياة انه ليس مهم كم من الناس من تقاطعهم

times you will cut , it will always have two faces.

حيث تبدو ان لك وجهين

I have learn that you should say good bye or

تعلمت ان اقول وداعا

good night with a warm felling as it might be the

و ليلة سعيدة بمشاعر دافئة, وكانك ترى من تخاطبه

last time you see them or they see you.

لاخر مرة في حياتك, او يرونك كذلك

 

I have learn that i can continue long after i say i

تعلمت ان افكر طويلا فيما اقول قبل ان اؤيد ما اقوله

cant go further....i have learn that hero's are

تعلمت ان الابطال هم

those who do what it must be done , when it

الذين فعلوا ما يجب فعله

should be done no matter which are the consequences.

ون انتظار نتيجة عملهم

I learn and discover that there are people who

تعلمت واكتشفت ان هناك اشخاص

love me but they do not know how to show that

يحبوني ولكن لا تستطيعون التعبير عن ذلك لي

 to me. I learn that when i am sad i have the

تعلمت انه عندمت اشعر بالحزن

RIGHT to be sad, but i dont have the right to be

لدي الحق في ان احزن..ولكن ليس لدي الحق في ان اكون سيئا للاخرين

BAD as well. I have learn that friendship can be

تعلمت ان الصداقة يمكن ان تطول

 longer even if it is long distance between and

حتى لو بعدت المسافة بين الاصدقاء

this is available for those who love as well...

الذين يحبون بعضهم بعضا

I discover that if somebody dsnt love you the

اكتشفت ان ان كان هناك شخص لا يحبك

way you want, dsnt mean that it hate you! A

لا يعني انه يكرهك

friend now matter how friend is for you, sooner

الصداقة هنا تعني كم هي مهمة بالنسبة لك

 or later it will hurt me, so i learn to forgive him/her time to time.

عاجلا ام اجلا سوف تؤلمني وتؤذيني لذلك تعلمت ان اصفح عنه او عنها من وقت لاخر

I learned that is not enough to forgive but time

تعلمت انه ليس كافيا ان اصفح للاخرين في بعض الاوقات

to time I should forgive myself also. I learn that

لكن يحب ان اصفح لنفسي

no matter how much you suffer, the life and

ليس مهما كم تعاني لا الحياة

world itself wouldnt stop because of you, that

والعالم لن يقفا بسببك

your past and circumstances will influence your

هذا هو ماضيك وحاضرك سوف يؤثر عل شخصيتك 

 personality for what you will became in the

وعلى مستقبلك ايضا

 future. I discover that two people they can

اكتشفت ان اثنين من الناس يمكن ان ينظروا

 watch one thing but see two diffrent things on it.

الى نفس الحدث بنظرتين مختلفتين

I discover that when i have no power to go on , if

اكتشفت ان عندما لا تكون لي قوة ان استمر

a friend call my name i do my best to help ...i

اجد صديقا يناديني باسمي ويقدم لي المساعدة

learned that writteing and talking could bring

تعلمت ان الكتابة والحديث مع الناس وعنهم يعطينا

peace and consolance in my heart.

السلام والامن النفسي والعزاء لقلبي

I discover that people whom i love them more

اكتشفت ان الناس الذين احبهم اكثر يموتون مبكرا

they die fast and i learnd that is to difficult to

تعلمت ان من الصعوبة ان ادرك لماذا...

 realise why...

تعلمت ان احب قب ان اُحب

I have learned to love because i want to be loved...

I HAVE LEARNED....

لقد تعلمت

   

  Another year pass, a new one arrived...in my life! Many of us get scared or depressed as they think they get old and still did not acomplish many of the things they wanted to do. I might fell same, as now at the age of 27 i still see myself alone, trying to find my half soul in this life, sad as i couldnt became yet a mother or at least a step mother! I will gave my life just to hear for 1 time a child calling me "mama"! I still fell sad as i couldnt contiunue my studies as i dreamed before to change the world:)))), fell sad but happy in same time as i manage to change smthg.: My heart! I fell i became more tolerant and kind with those near me! Dnt mean that i am naive, but i try to be good person as Allah loves only the good ones! So i want to be loved at least by Allah, if here in this life i might not get the love of my heart! Beeing muslimah it helps me to pass over many problems i had in my life, and here i am : stronger like a stone, wild like a lionesse defending her rights of surviveing in a cruel world! But i am tired....sometimes i need another soul to hold me and wisper that all is ok now, i need a smile in the morning, a kiss for good night, a shared coup of coffe in the winter days....so many simple things in life i want and do not have them yet....but i have with me smthg.: HOPE and FAITH!

 

I am sure , one day the sun will rise on my window, and i will meet that smile who will catch my heart forevere; and if i must wait for another 7 years then i will... i am sitting now on my chair, in front of PC, listening my favourite Elissa! I watch the time and it is the time when i born! Happy Birthday Salwa!:))))

 

And if i must make a moment wish right now, i just want to drive a BMW in a cold midnight, listen Elissa and let the window softlly and gentele cross my hair! Drive nowhere, just drive and fell the air of this life and world!

Another wish: just peace and health, as if you have those two then you can do all you dreamed.

 

Life is wonderfull if we have the courage to cross through it. And i am not afraid of doing that as i know myself. I am just bit tired and i need a peare of arms to rest my soul.Meanwhile i got my peace through my prayers, to my friends and familly who i love them so much! I hope they know that and i show them everyday how much they mean to me!

 

27 and many more further.....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  As salamaleikoom rahmatoolah wa barakatohoo!

 

 

 

Life was given by Allah...the right of chose what to do with it was a gift from Him as well...What did you chose to do with your life? Good thing ? Or bad things?....Why? About me...i am not perfect...i am weird, kind, silly,funny.crazy ,sensitive,nervous....but i chose...GOOD THINGS...